tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8154789468701571812024-03-05T12:24:44.689+01:00nutbutter on the spoonJohannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-5026908218644207502011-01-27T13:32:00.004+01:002011-01-27T15:57:36.595+01:00lost in the war of numbersOh my God, what a drama!<br /><br />Firstly I am very sorry for not blogging in a week, especially because it was supposed to be my tone up etc week but here is my excuse:<br /><br />First my internet connection broke down toegther with half of my power connection (half?! - yes only half of the power plugs in my room worked) and then I had the most stressful week in my life.<br /><br />As usual I underestimated the work of packing all my belongings into boxes for moving out and started about 48 hours before... BAD MISTAKE! I literally packed every second of the last two days and ended up with 8 boxes, 12 sacks full of clothes, 2 suitcases again full of...guess what...clothes and 3 IKEA bags full of leftover stuff that I could't fit into 8 boxes, 12 sacks and 2 suitcases. I mean it was not my first time moving but it was the first time I had to do it all by myself and had no Mama or Papa around to help me and calm me down when having a panic attack, which quite frankly happened a few times within the last 6 days!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5393171990/" title="IMG_3650 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5018/5393171990_b6072b7287_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3650" /></a><br /><br />And now I am sitting in an empty room of 30 square metres and here every word I say 3 three times as an echo!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5393173442/" title="IMG_3651 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5100/5393173442_6eb3747e65_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3651" /></a><br /><br />Unfortunately though I didn`t find any second to post and I feel very guilty, especially because it would probably have helped me avoiding some bad stress related eating and maybe prevented me from stepping on my housemates scale on monday... I am not sure why I did it. Maybe it was just out of interest or maybe I just wanted something positive to cheer me up...in fact the opposite happened. I was shocked by the number and probably more shocked about the fact that the number on the scale devastated me so much! I mean I know that the number is irrelevant as long as I feel good about myself and I am happy with my body but as soon as I saw this number all good thoughts seemed to have vanished and I felt thrown back to where I was a few month ago: controlled by the scale and unhappy with myself just because of <strong>A NUMBER!!! It feels like being lost and not being able to find the road you were on before!</strong> And even though it is a few days ago I still feel the consequences and still struggle to find my way back to the positive and happy thoughts that I had before! But I hope and know that a few days of good eating and running (which unfortuantely couldn't do the past week because there is something wrong with my knee: according to the doctor my inner thigh muscle is apparantly not as strong as the outer one and so my kneecap is pushed inwards whenever I run, weird?!) and of course less pressure and stress will lead me the way back to the 'road of positivity' I was on before. And I really learned my lesson when it comes to weighing myself! I promised myself on monday:<strong> I am not gonna weigh myself again until I am mentally strong enough to live with the number, as high as it might be, without relating it to the level of my self-esteem!!</strong><br /><strong></strong><br />Sorry about the long post but I had to get rid of all of these negative thoughts...blogging really is like therapy!<br /><br />About my tone-up, relaxation and detoxing week: I will do this project at some point but with all the stuff going on right now I think it is better to postpone it! Tomorrow I will fly home (Munich) to spend the weekend with my family and friends (and celebrate my birthday with my homegirls!) before the 'Adventure France' begins on tuesday. I am excited but nervous about going there and living with a family as their au-pair! I really hope I can fullfill all there expectations!Johannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-66322516295460339982011-01-18T10:41:00.002+01:002011-01-18T10:50:00.617+01:00Quick trip to MaastrichtI am gonna be in Maastricht for the next few days, to have a look at the University at which, if all things go as planned; I am gonna start studying in September. Unfortunately I am running out of time, because I felt the need to go to the Gym before leaving at 11:45... So I just leave you with some food pictures that i desperately wanted to share...recipes will follow! Have some great days!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359680954/" title="IMG_3636 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5002/5359680954_0e146d6db3_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3636" /></a><br /><br />Pumpkin, celery, lentil, brown rice salad topped with hummus<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351788083/" title="IMG_3570 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5002/5351788083_c4d9cc4244_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3570" /></a><br /><br />bean massala with salad and pita bread<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5348865630/" title="IMG_3560 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5006/5348865630_1b4f5fe065_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3560" /></a><br /><br />black bean and avocado salad on top of spinach leaves<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5348254157/" title="IMG_3541 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5043/5348254157_c07567c93c_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3541" /></a><br /><br />scrambled tofu on spinach leaves topped with mild salsaJohannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-5581176035348896282011-01-16T09:17:00.004+01:002011-01-16T10:36:06.965+01:00Banana "cappuccino"I am not a big coffee drinker... well actually it varies from drinking no coffee at all to drinking a lot of coffee and then depend on it (as in getting headaches if I don't get any)... But at the moment I feel totally fine without it! I love the taste but hate the feeling of the caffeine rush in my body!<br /><br />But this post is actually about something that may look like coffee but is in fact a much healthier and yummier delight! <strong>Banana cappuccino</strong>! I made this for dessert the other day but it serves lovely breakfast as well and I hav to admit that since I made it for the first time I had it at least once every day!<br /><br /><a title="IMG_3625 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359061959/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3625" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5290/5359061959_c86c38a10e_z.jpg" width="640" /></a><br /><br />It is refreshing and ridiciously easy!<br /><br /><a title="IMG_3628 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359676944/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3628" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5205/5359676944_32373f3794_z.jpg" width="640" /></a><br /><br />All you need for a <strong>Banana cappuccino</strong> is:<br /><br /><ul><li><strong>1 Banana (preferably frozen)</strong></li><li><strong>3 litlle Icecubes</strong></li><li><strong>2/3 cup of non dairy milk (I used rice-soy milk)</strong></li><li><strong>pinch of vanilla powder</strong></li><li><strong>pinch of cinnamon</strong></li></ul><p>But everything into blender and blend for about 2 minutes</p><p>as <strong>toppings</strong> some really nice options are:</p><ul><li><strong>some sort of nutbutter</strong></li><li><strong>granola or muesli</strong></li><li><strong>chocolate chips</strong></li><li><strong>sliced up banana</strong></li><li><strong>some more cinnamon</strong></li></ul><p>this is definately one of my favourite recipes in the world!</p><p><a title="IMG_3627 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359675820/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3627" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5242/5359675820_f36e6fed2c_z.jpg" width="640" /></a></p><p>Besides eating this all day long I had some other very delicious meals. My Korean housemate decided to spoil me with some homecoocked <strong>Misosoup </strong>and <strong>Korean Vegetable Pancakes</strong>! It was delicious a very fun to make. </p><p><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359054719/" title="IMG_3611 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5203/5359054719_79bc1108fc_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3611" /></a></p><p><a title="IMG_3627 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359675820/"></a></p><p>The <strong>Korean Pancakes</strong> are very easy to make. You just need:</p><ul><li><strong>1 small sweet potato</strong></li><li><strong>1/2 zuccini</strong></li><li><strong>1 cup of flour</strong></li><li><strong>1 egg</strong></li></ul><p>You have to cut the vegetables very thinly and then mix everything together. Place little dollops of it in a heated pan and bake for about 3 minutes on each side!</p><p><a title="IMG_3613 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359668888/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3613" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5208/5359668888_34e2bf7315_z.jpg" width="640" /></a></p><p>Although eating vegan most of the time I don`t mind eating an organic egg once in a while!</p><p><a title="IMG_3615 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5359057143/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3615" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5287/5359057143_a84c6fa339_z.jpg" width="640" /></a></p><p>This was the end result! It was delicious and just what we needed on a cold and dark day in Hamburg!</p><p>I have some more recipes waiting to be published the next days but as for now that must be enough :) I'm leaving for the gym and am massively excited because I took a 2-days break due to a housemate casting we had on the weekend!</p><p><strong>What is your favourite cuisine, nationality wise? </strong></p>Johannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-7193128288181404352011-01-13T17:41:00.003+01:002011-01-13T19:06:07.783+01:00The challenge of a bad dayThis morning when I woke up I felt blue.... not just a little but massively! I couldn`t really tell why but the day just seemed to be wrong! Usually that would mean that I find myself feeling sad for myself all day and just lock myself in...with a block of chocolate in most cases. But one of my New Year's resolution was to "feel bad emotions" instead of ignoring them in order to find out ways to make them go away...without the "help" of food.<br /><br />So I am reading this book at the moment called "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin, in which the author dedicates one year trying to be happier in life! It is a very interesting book and although everyone has his own definition of happiness and different "happy moments" it is yet surprising how many parallels I found.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5352441454/" title="IMG_3594 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5245/5352441454_cfc1bb7c43_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3594" /></a><br /><br />In January, she is approaching the task from a different angle each month, she sets the goal to "tackle a nagging task" and in fact that is what I often find myself in. Whenever I have something rather annoying to do, and that can be even just a small task, like cleaning my room, which I am trying to avoid I often tell myself "I'll do it tomorrow!". Although I now that I would actually benefit from doing it now. And if more of these little tasks come together and become a bulk i tend to stress out and be overwhelmed.<br /><br />Reading this book inspired me to think about how I could improve my mood and turn the day into a good one! In order to become happier I had to first figure out what actually makes me happy and what, on the other hand makes me unhappy!<br /><br />First up was things that make me happy and cheer me up:<br /><br />1) <strong>Food</strong><br />I know this is actually what shouldn't be on the list but let me explain. Whenever I get stressed and find myself in uncomfortable situations i either eat to much or restrict to much. So the challenge is to eat the right amount (and not get carried away) and therefore avoid binges later in the day.<br /><br /> <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351835343/" title="IMG_3573 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5288/5351835343_fa410dc97f_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3573" /></a><br /><br />So I had this lovely bowl of <strong>muesli with apple and mangoe topped with almond butter.</strong><br /><br /><br />2) <strong>Exercise</strong><br /> again the golden rule is not to get carried away! So i did my usual routine that i planned for the week. After that I enjoyed a very <strong>hot shower</strong>, which was originally not on the list but it felt so good that I had to put it up there.<br /><br />3) <strong>Browsing blogs</strong><br />I did that quite a lot today! It is just so inspiring and motivating!<br /><br />4) <strong>Listening to music</strong><br />and so I listened to my new favourite radiostation NOVA 96,9 Sydney via live stream, God bless the internet!<br /><br />I could think of some other things that make me happy, like <strong>talking to my best friend on skype</strong>, which I did earlier this morning, but looking around my room there was something very eye-catching that was clearly on my list of things that make me unhappy.<br /><br />Can you tell what it is?!<br /><br />1) <strong>Messy surrounding</strong><br />So I did what had to be done and cleaned my room and it was actually a good opportunity to collect some stuff for the flea market next week. Because I move to France on February the 2nd I have to get rid of a lot of stuff and keep the amount of furniture and boxes that go into storage as little as possible. First off was my desk!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351841735/" title="IMG_3581 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5126/5351841735_db727a3dd3_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3581" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351816415/" title="IMG_3582 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5045/5351816415_18537277cf_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3582" /></a><br /><br />A blogger need an organized desk!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351818121/" title="IMG_3583 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5122/5351818121_d838bd0d6b_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3583" /></a><br /><br />looks much better!<br /><br />I took a little break from cleaning to enjoy some very nice lunch.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5352431498/" title="IMG_3587 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5168/5352431498_a1104718e3_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3587" /></a><br /><br />Salad of mixed vegtables and scrambled tofu with some apple slices for dessert<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351823929/" title="IMG_3588 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5208/5351823929_49b41f1eea_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3588" /></a><br /><br />it was very yummy and in fact made me <strong>happier!</strong><br /><br />After lunch there was still heaps to do and so I cleaned the rest of the room! And it went from this:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5352419176/" title="IMG_3579 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5050/5352419176_7777c2e1d2_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3579" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351839843/" title="IMG_3580 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5206/5351839843_dfc729053c_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3580" /></a><br /><br />To this:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5352438862/" title="IMG_3590 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5242/5352438862_02e84c0420_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3590" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5352436046/" title="IMG_3589 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5241/5352436046_980767c906_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3589" /></a><br /><br />Ok maybe I should have put the vacuum cleaner away before taking this picture! You can tell by the change of light that I took it easy and it took me a while to finish this nagging task, but I did it and it makes me happier!<br /><br />So this was my day challenging my bad mood, and although I might not be the happiest person in the world at night either I really think I completed my task to try and find out what makes me happy and unhappy. I am finishing off my day with two things that never failed to make me happy!<br /><br /><strong>Dinner:</strong><br /><br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5351937083/" title="IMG_3602 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5285/5351937083_fbfdc0e9d3_z.jpg" width="640" height="427" alt="IMG_3602" /></a><br /><br />which included <strong>bean, brocolli and sweet potatoe masalla, mashed up avocado and half a whole wheat pita</strong><br /><br /><br />And my beloved friends from <strong>Gossip Girl. </strong>Oh this show just makes me happy! It is funny how after watching one episode you feel like one of them, or is that just me?! EHHHM...anyways, I hope you guys had a great day!<br /><br /><strong>What is your secret to boost up your mood on a bad day?</strong>Johannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-31609026246888667952011-01-12T10:25:00.007+01:002011-01-12T11:37:41.602+01:00favourite tv shows and lovely breakfastI am a really sad blogger!<br /><br /><div><div><div>no my peanutbutter jar ist not empty...yet. It is a problem of different matter that keeps me from being completely happy. Let me explain first. I am a person who loves her routines and especially now that I have plenty of time for myself ( I still have 2 weeks to go before I move to France and have nothing to do expect organizing some stuff and keeping care of myself) I have a special morning routine that is highly in danger now!</div><br /><div>I start my day early at 7 am. Spend the first half an hour or so checking emails and blogs on the internet befor I enjoy a lovely breakfast that usually looks like this: </div><div><br /><a title="IMG_3564 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5348257285/"></a><a title="IMG_3564 by 3f93af48f887b40d14fe04ed0809897c, on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/58280214@N08/5348257285/"><img height="427" alt="IMG_3564" src="http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5207/5348257285_da69bf823a_z.jpg" width="640" /></a><br /></div><br />In this this case it was a delicious musli blowl with apple and banana along with almond butte´r and rapsberry jam! yum! breakfast, check!</div><div></div><br /><div>After breakfast I need at least 2 hours to digest before my gym routine can begin so I usually enjoy one episode of my favourite tv-show, which is lately <strong>Breaking Bad.</strong> </div><br /><div></div><br /><div><img style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 653px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 511px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://s2.imgimg.de/uploads/BreakingBad73f42a15jpg.jpg" border="0" /></div></div><br /><p>And here is where the drama begins. I finished the last episode of season 3 and therefore have non left, which puts a huge whole into my morning routine, that I am not sure how to fill!! You see major drama happening! So for tomorrow I have to find something new to replace it! But gees this show is good, I really enjoyed watching it and I can't wait until the next season comes out, which should be pretty soon!</p><p>Ah well I guess I just have to hit the Gym earlier today and then do some research for a replacement leter in the day! Or do you guys have an suggestions for a new favourite TV-show?</p><p>But it is funny how much safer I feel if I can just stick to my routine. I think it is still something that is left from my old control freak times in which I literally freaked out when something happened which did`n't fit my plan! But I think I am becoming better and better in coping with little changes, because in the end life never runs according the plan and that's what makes it so interesting!! </p><p><strong>Do you have a certain routine in the morning or for the day? What's your favourite TV-show?</strong></p><p></p>Johannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-815478946870157181.post-79014540404549519292011-01-10T17:32:00.005+01:002011-01-10T19:06:07.136+01:00Back into business<span style="font-family:arial;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Hey</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">there</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">blogworld</span>, I am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">back</span>!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">It</span>´s <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">been</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">while</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">and</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">lot</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">happened</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">past</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">couple</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_14">month</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_15">but</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_16">started</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_17">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_18">feel</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_19">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_20">urge</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_21">for</span> blogging <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_22">today</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_23">as</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_24">read</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_25">recent</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_26">post</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_27">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_28">Chelsey</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_29">from</span> </span><a href="http://http//cleaneatingchelsey.com/2011/01/09/scale-slave/"><span style="font-family:arial;">"<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_30">Clean</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_31">eating</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_32">Chelsey</span>"</span></a><span style="font-family:arial;">. In <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_33">this</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_34">post</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_35">she</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_36">talks</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_37">about</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_38">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_39">impact</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_40">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_41">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_42">used</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_43">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_44">have</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_45">on</span> her <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_46">life</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_47">And</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_48">this</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_49">is</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_50">what</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_51">want</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_52">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_53">talk</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_54">about</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_55">today</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_56">because</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_57">fact</span> I also <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_58">used</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_59">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_60">be</span> a "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_61">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_62">slave</span>", <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_63">as</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_64">she</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_65">calls</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_66">it</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_67">for</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_68">very</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_69">long</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_70">time</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_71">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_72">life</span>! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">In <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_73">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_74">family</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_75">weight</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_76">always</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_77">big</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_78">issue</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_79">as</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_80">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_81">Mum</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_82">struggled</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_83">lot</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_84">with</span> her <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_85">overweight</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_86">and</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_87">trying</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_88">out</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_89">new</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_90">diet</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_91">weekly</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_92">both</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_93">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_94">parents</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_95">had</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_96">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_97">habbit</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_98">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_99">weighing</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_100">themselves</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_101">every</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_102">morning</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_103">Even</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_104">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_105">some</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_106">long</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_107">holiday</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_108">trips</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_109">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_110">scale</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_111">packed</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_112">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_113">luggage</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_114">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_115">go</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_116">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_117">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_118">trip</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_119">with</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_120">us</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_121">And</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_122">as</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_123">children</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_124">tend</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_125">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_126">pick</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_127">up</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_128">habits</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_129">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_130">are</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_131">lived</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_132">by</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_133">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_134">people</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_135">there</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_136">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_137">closest</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_138">to</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_139">Ialso</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_140">began</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_141">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_142">weigh</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_143">myself</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_144">on</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_145">daily</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_146">basis</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_147">when</span> I was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_148">around</span> 12!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">In <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_149">times</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_150">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_151">obsessive</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_152">food</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_153">restriction</span> (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_154">have</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_155">look</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_156">at</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_157">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_158">About</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_159">page</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_160">for</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_161">more</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_162">information</span>) <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_163">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_164">scale</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_165">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_166">best</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_167">friend</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_168">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_169">worst</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_170">enemy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_171">at</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_172">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_173">same</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_174">time</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_175">If</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_176">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_177">numbers</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_178">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_179">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_180">went</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_181">down</span> I was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_182">happy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_183">cheerful</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_184">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_185">therefore</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_186">committed</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_187">to</span> lose <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_188">even</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_189">more</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_190">if</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_191">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_192">numbers</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_193">went</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_194">up</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_195">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_196">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_197">other</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_198">hand</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_199">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_200">put</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_201">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_202">into</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_203">stage</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_204">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_205">frustraion</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_206">confusion</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_207">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_208">self</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_209">hatred</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_210">But</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_211">one</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_212">thing</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_213">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_214">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_215">always</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_216">gave</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_217">me</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_218">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_219">feeling</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_220">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_221">control</span>. I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_222">felt</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_223">like</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_224">without</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_225">this</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_226">control</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_227">would</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_228">not</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_229">be</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_230">able</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_231">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_232">mantaine</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_233">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_234">weight</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_235">It</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_236">seemed</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_237">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_238">be</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_239">some</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_240">feeling</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_241">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_242">being</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_243">control</span> in a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_244">world</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_245">where</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_246">you</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_247">have</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_248">absolutely</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_249">none</span>! </span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">In <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_250">times</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_251">when</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_252">worked</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_253">out</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_254">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_255">actually</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_256">felt</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_257">better</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_258">about</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_259">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_260">body</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_261">stepped</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_262">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_263">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_264">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_265">and</span> all <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_266">this</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_267">pride</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_268">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_269">self</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_270">confidence</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_271">gone</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_272">within</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_273">seconds</span>. I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_274">mean</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_275">knew</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_276">that</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_277">would</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_278">gain</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_279">from</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_280">working</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_281">out</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_282">because</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_283">muscles</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_284">weigh</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_285">more</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_286">than</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_287">fat</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_288">but</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_289">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_290">power</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_291">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_292">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_293">numbers</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_294">always</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_295">bigger</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_296">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_297">end</span>, so <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_298">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_299">sometimes</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_300">even</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_301">stopped</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_302">working</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_303">out</span> so <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_304">the</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_305">weighed</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_306">less</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_307">again</span>!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_308">It</span> was in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_309">late</span> November last <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_310">year</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_311">when</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_312">decided</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_313">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_314">end</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_315">this</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_316">drama</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_317">It</span> was a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_318">tough</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_319">time</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_320">for</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_321">me</span>, I was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_322">unhappy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_323">with</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_324">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_325">university</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_326">studies</span>, was in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_327">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_328">process</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_329">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_330">ending</span> a 2-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_331">years</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_332">on</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_333">and</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_334">off</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_335">relationship</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_336">and</span> just <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_337">moved</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_338">out</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_339">from</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_340">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_341">parents</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_342">house</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_343">into</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_344">city</span> 8 <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_345">hours</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_346">away</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_347">from</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_348">home</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_349">where</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_350">knew</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_351">absolutely</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_352">noone</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_353">My</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_354">sister</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_355">at</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_356">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_357">place</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_358">for</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_359">visit</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_360">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_361">we</span> just <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_362">enjoyed</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_363">delicious</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_364">thai</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_365">chicken</span>-<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_366">curry</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_367">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_368">chocolate</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_369">fondue</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_370">for</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_371">dessert</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_372">when</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_373">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_374">suddenly</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_375">stroke</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_376">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_377">and</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_378">said</span>: <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_379">let</span>'s <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_380">destroy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_381">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_382">scale</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_383">And</span> so <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_384">we</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_385">did</span>, I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_386">took</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_387">hammer</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_388">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_389">destroyed</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_390">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_391">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_392">completely</span> in a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_393">very</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_394">relieving</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_395">almost</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_396">ceremonial</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_397">act</span>! </span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_398">And</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_399">ever</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_400">since</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_401">didn</span>´t <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_402">weigh</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_403">myself</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_404">And</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_405">as</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_406">thought</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_407">before</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_408">it</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_409">not</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_410">easy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_411">at</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_412">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_413">beginning</span>. I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_414">freaked</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_415">out</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_416">whenever</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_417">ate</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_418">more</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_419">than</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_420">planned</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_421">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_422">felt</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_423">huge</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_424">urge</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_425">to</span> just <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_426">step</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_427">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_428">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_429">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_430">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_431">assure</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_432">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_433">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_434">impact</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_435">wasn</span>´t <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_436">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_437">big</span>! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_438">But</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_439">after</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_440">almost</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_441">two</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_442">month</span> i am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_443">fine</span>! I am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_444">finally</span> (<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_445">re</span>-) <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_446">building</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_447">connection</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_448">between</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_449">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_450">mind</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_451">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_452">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_453">body</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_454">Now</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_455">go</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_456">by</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_457">how</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_458">feel</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_459">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_460">how</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_461">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_462">clothes</span> fit <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_463">me</span>. Also I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_464">concentrate</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_465">more</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_466">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_467">what</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_468">eat</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_469">but</span> in a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_470">good</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_471">way</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_472">Before</span> i <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_473">crushed</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_474">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_475">scale</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_476">ate</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_477">foods</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_478">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_479">were</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_480">low</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_481">calorie</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_482">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_483">that</span> was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_484">basically</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_485">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_486">only</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_487">criteria</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_488">based</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_489">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_490">meal</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_491">decisions</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_492">on</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_493">Now</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_494">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_495">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_496">has</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_497">definately</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_498">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_499">do</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_500">with</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_501">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_502">going</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_503">mostly</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_504">vegan</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_505">because</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_506">experienced</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_507">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_508">same</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_509">effect</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_510">whenever</span> I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_511">went</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_512">vegan</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_513">for</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_514">while</span>, I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_515">go</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_516">by</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_517">how</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_518">food</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_519">makes</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_520">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_521">feel</span>. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_522">If</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_523">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_524">makes</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_525">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_526">tummy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_527">and</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_528">tastebuds</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_529">happy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_530">it</span>´s <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_531">got</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_532">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_533">be</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_534">good</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_535">for</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_536">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_537">aka</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_538">my</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_539">mind</span>! </span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">So I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_540">think</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_541">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_542">is</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_543">possible</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_544">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_545">be</span> in "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_546">control</span>" (I <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_547">rather</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_548">refer</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_549">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_550">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_551">as</span> "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_552">balance</span>" <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_553">now</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_554">because</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_555">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_556">what</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_557">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_558">feels</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_559">like</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_560">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_561">me</span>) <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_562">without</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_563">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_564">daily</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_565">habit</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_566">of</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_567">hopping</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_568">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_569">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_570">scale</span> in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_571">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_572">morning</span>! Don't <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_573">get</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_574">me</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_575">wrong</span> I am <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_576">not</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_577">saying</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_578">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_579">weighing</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_580">yourself</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_581">daily</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_582">is</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_583">necessarily</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_584">wrong</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_585">for</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_586">everybody</span>! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_587">But</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_588">if</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_589">you</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_590">feel</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_591">that</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_592">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_593">numbers</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_594">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_595">the</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_596">scale</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_597">tend</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_598">to</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_599">have</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_600">uncomfortable</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_601">impact</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_602">on</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_603">your</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_604">mood</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_605">you</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_606">should</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_607">maybe</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_608">consider</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_609">crushing</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_610">it</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_611">with</span> a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_612">hammer</span>!<br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span>Johannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08701405370286026662noreply@blogger.com2